The transformation

I got hit. One blow after the other. Not physically no. But emotionally. I let myself down, I let my parents down, I let everyone who believed in me down. I was, well. I was mad at the world. I smile and laugh, but on the inside I'm drowning with tears. I repeat the same words after all the damage is said and done " It's okay" even though I know its not. Even though I know I can never forgive him for what he's done. Not just him, but everyone who once failed me when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I was cruel, unforgiving, and well excuse my language a bitch. But you know what, from all the things in life. From all the ugliness I saw. I just learned to let it go. for once, I let my anger all fade away, all my sadness, all my frustration disappear. And thats when I saw the world for what it truly is. Pure beauty. The inner serenity I got, the peace was exquisite. And for anyone who's reading this? And feels what I feel? And knows what's it like to feel like a failure? Let me tell you this. At your lowest points in life, thats when you'll open your eyes, and realize what went wrong. That's when things will start getting better, thats when you'll light the candle, and find your way through the darkness. Cause honestly the world in beautiful, you just have to read between the lines. Stay strong, and smile.

Just to make things clear

Okay so as you can see I opened up another blog. BUT here's the catch, this is NOT a story, its basically my thoughts. It's a place where I can fess up and say how I feel. All these feelings have been bottled up for so long, that I can't remember anymore. So here you go, an inside scoop of what goes inside my head. I really do hope you guys enjoy it. I love you guys so much, I sincerely thank everyone for all the support. Even the haters, heck if it wasn't for you guys, I wouldn't have gone this far. xoxo 

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